The Year of Changes and Goodbyes

4:15 PM




Can't believe we're already seven days into January! Crazy how time flies. The night before aka NYE, my family and I just went out to dinner in a Chinese restaurant. I was reading a book (Wolf by Wolf by Ryan Graudin. It's AWESOME.) and my dad was watching The Intern when the New Year rang in. Wasn't anything special, but the most important thing is you're spending it with your loved ones.

On New Year's Day though, we all headed out to Union and had lunch there. The food was great, but the company was even greater.

Anyways, I had a realization that this year, 2016, will be the year of changes for me. I'm heading out to Uni this fall and the thought scares the shit out of me. The thought of flying somewhere far, somewhere foreign without my family in tow is scary. But I know this is a part of growing up. So I can't just ignore it and be a child my whole life.

Baby Spinach Salad (85k)

Escargot (95k) 

Porcini Mushrooms, Tagliatelle & White Truffle Cream (85k)

BBQ Glazed Grilled Chicken (95k)

Before getting all sappy about the future, let's just appreciate how delicious the food looks. I obviously didn't eat them all, but I had them bit by bit and they all tasted AMAZING!

I do recommend you check out this restaurant if you're ever in Jakarta. Amazing food, the interior is gorgeous, just one teeny tiny bit that I don't really like is how long we had to wait for the food. Yeah, the restaurant is always packed, but do something about it, please! I was so hangry, that I didn't talk much with my family before the food came because I was scared if I was about to explode (hehe).

I'm gonna miss them. And my dad. And everyone else in my family!

Just a reminder, I'm gonna get a whole sappy and sobby right now. Just an fyi!

Anyways, sitting there with my family (including my grandparents), I kept on wondering how thankful I was that I have such a great family. We sometimes fight, but their love for me is amazing. So to be sitting there in the restaurant, I kept on wondering what will happen next year? Will we spend the New Years together, or not? Like I said, I'm going to Uni this fall. Socializing isn't something that's easy for me, so I know it'll be hard for me the first couple of months.

I just don't know what I'm gonna do when I'm miles away from my family, figuring my life out all alone. I don't wanna be depressed or sad, I'll try to get away from that, but that's hard when you're all alone in a foreign city. But aside from all the goodbyes that I'll be doing this fall, I know that going away will also be good for me. I hope that it'll change me, in a better way. :)

Still dreading saying goodbyes to the ones I love. Leaving them behind? It'll be so hard for me. Because I'm so close to my family and all. As for friends? I don't have a huge group of friends, but I know that the distance apart will be good. Not because I don't like them, but it'll make us more mature to be separated for a while. And leaving my dog behind! Gosh, the thought of doing that breaks my heart. I need to stop thinking about that. So I'll be sure to cherish my time with my loved ones for the next few months before I leave.

Sorry that this post was a sappy one! I just needed to let it all out and reflect on how tough this year will be for me.

Much love, Ashley xx

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  1. A lovely post ♥

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    1. Thanks so much lovely x was hard for me to write

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  3. Great post!

    Good luck in the new year :)

    xo

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    1. Thank you :) thanks for that, I needed it so bad!!! You too, have a great new year x

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  4. Ah this post is definitely making me hungry. Good luck with uni as well, it can feel like a bit jump but (speaking for experience) uni is just like one big adventure and totally not something to worry about beforehand! :)

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    1. Hahahah! Thank you so much. Thanks for the tips, gonna need it for the future! I'm so scared, but I know I'll get through it when I'm there x

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  5. Happy new year and great photography! xx

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    1. Happy new year to you too! Thanks so much xx

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  6. Wow, that food looks amazing, especially the chicken! I think the best thing to think about when moving may just be the amazing opportunities ahead! Being in a new place means meeting new people, seeing new places and eating yummy food hehe! If you don't mind, I would love to share the blog post on a series I have on my blog called "Spreading the Link Love." I hope you have a happy and healthy new year!

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    1. The chicken is super duper delicious! Aw yeah, thanks for saying that. New opportunities in life is the best, but because I'm close to my family it's a bit tougher, but I'll get through it. Thanks for the support! Hope you have a great new year as well x

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    2. I can't wait to see what is in store for you in the year ahead through your blog! The "Spreading Link Love" post should be up on the 11th on More D&D on my blog, so come on over to see your pretty self featured! Thanks again, have a great weekend.

      xxxx from Emily | diamondsanddachshunds.weebly.com

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    3. Aw, thanks so much. Alright, I'll stop by!

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  7. You will do great! I know it's tough, but your family is a Facetime call away. :) Plus, you'll have many opportunities to visit each other! It's an exciting time, and I understand it's also very hard being as close as you are to family. I wish you all the best!
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    1. Aw, thanks so much for the support, Nataliya! Yeah, they are. Although the distance from the uni I'm planning to go from home is quite far, I know I'll get to meet them every Christmas and summer x thanks so much, seriously. I needed that! x

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  8. Oh my gosh escargot, what did it taste like?

    I decided to study in Canada for half a year from Australia and it was also my first time living away from home. I did get extremely homesick but by the end I absolutely loved it and almost didn't want to come back home. You get to learn so much and discover yourself. Plus, you'll have a million stories to share when you get back! Also the good thing is there's Facetime and Skype now to keep in touch and don't forget we've all got your back. X

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    1. I didn't eat it!!! Only my mom and sister did teehee.

      Aw thanks so much for the support, Sally! Yeah I've been thinking about it a lot, and on one hand I want to go to uni at home so I can be close with my family but on the other hand I want to move away to discover myself. The scary thing is, I'm not so good when it comes to socializing. I have anxiety as well, so that's part of the struggle about moving away. But I know I'll be fine when I do go abroad for uni. Thanks once agaain x

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  9. The best of luck for you! After a while it gets more easy!
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  10. I love this post, and your pictures are amazing, as in the clarity! xx

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  11. Happy New Year!!

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    1. You too! Hahaha yes they tasted good as well x

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  13. Reading this post at night when I'm hungry... prolly not the best idea but I love the photos!!

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    1. Hahaha you probably shouldn't read it late at night!! Thanks so much :)

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  14. First of all, have you read The Walled City also by Ryan Graudin? I read it early last year and loved it.

    Second, I can totally understand your feelings towards beginning university. I am also starting university this year and honestly, I'm still in denial! I keep thinking I'm going back to another year of high school.

    It's so cool that you're going to university overseas! Think of all the new opportunities, new experiences, and all the new friends awaiting you. I know it doesn't make it any easier to leave what's familiar but it's a start. Everyone else will be looking to make friends and you will have absolutely nothing to hold you back. I hope you will blog about your uni life.

    Happy New Year!

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    1. I haven't! I should definitely check that out when I can! Her writing is amazing.

      Yeah, me too. Every single night, I get super anxious thinking about it. Making it hard for me to sleep and all that. Quite hard, but I'll get through it! Yes, I'll be looking to the bright side when I'm overseas. I hope I'll get through it :) thanks for the support! I will when I have the time :)

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  15. This is such a sweet and sentimental post! Heading off to school is going to be one of the best experiences of your life so don't worry too much! Happy new year lady!
    xoxo Annie
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    1. Thanks so much! Your support is much appreciated, Annie! Thanks so much for that x happy new year to you too!

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  16. Great photos, it looks like a nice place! I wish you all the best in 2016 :)
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